shirlyn life

2007-11-19T15:06:00.000+08:00

I am really veri happy today. my birthday wish come true.
the dream of a family finally realised...
i am having a baby...
kinda happy and excited...
and abit of worry..
however i am still veri happy...

Buai Buai
~LolliPop~
I.Lurve.You

2007-10-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was our farewell assembly. We had decide to meet in class at 1pm. Before i go to school, i went to buy lunch for Ms Wong and then proceed to school. After handing the food over to Ms Wong I head to class. While i was walking towards the class, i saw Ah Fu, Qi Sheng, Fatin, Fahana and some others sitting or standing outside de classroom. i immediately know that we have no key to the class. After awhile more and more people came. Mr Soh walked pass us and talk cock to the boys. After that Bing Han and Qi Sheng try to get into the class by the window. Qi Sheng went in successfully without more effort. He opened the back door for us from inside. After going in Mr Soh immediately went to the board to write some announcement for his tuition groups. When he was about to leave, he try to open the front door but to no available. We made fun of him and then he went off with a smile. Mr Foo came into our class to make some announcement and went off too... Soon after we saw most of the form teachers of the other classes going in to their form class. We waited and wondering why our teachers didnt come yet. Soon after, Mrs Ang came in and we were all very happy. She told us of the o lvls R&R. After that she give us a pen each with her name on it. Quite a expensive pen. Ms Wong came in around 10 mins after Mrs Ang. Then after that Mdm Anata walked in with 2 packets of Time Out Chocolates. She ask ah fu to distribute the chocolates to us and wish us all the best. After a while, a secondary 2 boy came in and ask us to proceed to the hall. We lined up outside and head towards the hall.

Some parts of the journey to the hall was held up by waiting of other classes. Upon reaching the hall, the atmosphere of the hall was very tense. We walk on the red carpet with all the teachers standing up and clap for us. It was so tensed. I feel like cry but held the tears in the back of my eyes. We then settle down at the seats allocated for us. The assembly soon begin.

The first item of the assembly was a talk given by Mr Tan Chee Siong. He give a speech and then he sang us a song of I Believe I Can Fly. This made me think of the past of an assembly which he first introduce the song to us. it was so memorable.

The second item was a performance by Jian Jie, Joe, Mr Lye and 1 other guy. The sang the song of An Jing followed by Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi. Mr Lye singing was so good. I really enjoyed the performance. It really bring up the spirits of us. The whole hall was full of praising.

The third item was a speech by Rebecca of 5C who represent the whole sec5 level to say thanks to our teachers. Rina actually fell asleep during that speech.. hmm.. how rude.. haha.

The fourth item was a girl from sec 4 singing the song of lao po from SHE. Although she dun look very pretty but her singing was very nice. we was quite shy and nervous. some people say that she is the version of Selina + Hebe + Ella. So Bad.

The Fifth item was 2 person playing guitar and singing song. Although i could not hear what she was singing but we still clap for her courage. After that the guy sing and play along. The singing of the guy was very good. 2 thumbs up.

The Sixth item was a speech given by the guitar girl. Quite bored actually. I dun really like speech. So not much comment.

The Seventh item was a song sang by various teachers. Ms Wong and Mrs Ang went up to the stage too... The song was wonderful. Tears were gathering around my eyes again. I lifted up my head to look at the ceiling so that the tears will fall back. Trying very very hard to control myself.

The eight item was a speech my Randy. speech again. So same, no comments.

The ninth item was the most cunning culprit of making me cry. It was the slide show of teachers words to us and then our class slides. When the slides were running along, i think back to the time we just started our secondary 3 life. The days that we are so mischievous that we made most of the teachers hate us. The days of our secondary 3 camp. We managed to struggle through the exams and went up to secondary 4. Secondary 4 was the worst year. the whole class was divided into many different groups. It was very disunited. We gave a lot of troubles to teachers, principal and vice principal. Finally half the class managed to survive through N Levels. We proceed to Sec5 and then now we are having our farewell. It is like so fast.

then lastly we proceed to our school song and ended the farewell assembly.

before we left the hall, the teachers standed in 2 row beside the red carpet and wait for us to shake hand with them. they then give us words of encouragement. we cried again and again. the emotion was like so dot dot dot. even the teachers also cried.

we take photos and then rushed home after that to prepare for dinner. the dinner was very nice and it is treated by mr lin. i went of with ms wong and jia wen after that.

i think i will write till here... Last but not the least, thanks to all of u guys and teachers. I really feel very happy to know all of u. You guys rox~!!! Take care.

Buai Buai
~LolliPop~
I.Lurve.You

2007-09-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

planning for my wedding dinner recently. veri busy... hmm... things arent going veri smoothly.. hope that everything will be smoother for me.. mood feel veri losuy and everything is changing.. i dunno how to explain but i really hope that everything will turn out fine..
the onli thing i know is that i will love my hubby forever...

Buai Buai
~LolliPop~
I.Lurve.You

2007-09-02T22:40:00.000+08:00

prelim is going on and life is not so good... didnt strike any 4d recently so sian... bought a new hp K810i and i am so happy with it... bought a 1gb memory card for it also... caused a bomb... veri frustrating recently... dunno how to put it...
hope that my wedding dinner will be held on the end of dec... so everything will go along smoothly...
ok write till here...
come in tml...

Buai Buai
~LolliPop~
I.Lurve.You

2007-08-15T17:18:00.000+08:00

haiz recently many things happened at home. i realli dunno wad to do.. so confused.. dnt folio deadline is near and my dead day is also near... realli veri frustrated this few days.. school is killing me.. cant wait for the farewell assembly to reach asap.. haiz... haiz... haiz... realli feel veri distracted during lesson time.. dun feel like studying... i am realli tired.. tired with the life that i am having now... why muz it be lidat... i am dying in my heart... things are rushing thru my heart... i am draging myself everyday... dun feel like writing le..

Buai Buai
~LolliPop~
I.Lurve.You

2007-07-21T15:11:00.000+08:00

today SUX...

Buai Buai
~LolliPop~
I.Lurve.You

2007-07-21T13:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday night i slept veri early... feel veri tired after a whole day at school...
after sch wait for the mr tan wee meng to finish his meeting then we go dnt workshop...
wait till 2.30... so sian... so i stay in class from 12.45 to 2.30... played music using the speaker in class... so lame waiting....
den after that i went to the workshop and den i saw Mr Nantha... we chatted for a bit den he give mi his number... i tink i free muz ask him out for dinner... ask him treat... haha....
den around 5pm lidat i left the workshop to head for home.... so tired....
when i reach home, dear dear at home liao... he sleeping.. so i saw that he is sleeping, i nv disturb him lor.... let him go sleep....
i den use the com and do my things... i transfer my music files and photo from thumbdrive to handphone or to my laptop... transfer here and there... so stupid....
when i transfer my mp3 file from handphone to thumbfile, it took me a hour to do so... i lie on my bed while waiting... and guess wad? i fall asleep until today... haha....
Later going to Esther's baby's full month celebration.... dunno who going... haha... come back den blog again...

Buai Buai
~LolliPop~
I.Lurve.You

2007-07-20T19:26:00.000+08:00

Veri long no blog le... so today free come in blog blog awhile...
hmm.... say from awards' nite....
i am veri happy to receive the best in chinese award. on the day of awards nite, i was veri nervous... mummy and dear dear came and see... haha... so happy...

den say my dear de bday ba...
on my dear dear de birthday, i can say is veri busy...
busy making the food for the celebration...
i invited all my family members to come and celebrate for dear dear....
cook so many things...
got spaghetti den got baked potato with egg mayo, garlic bread, campbell soup, french fries, and alot alot...
so tat day basically eat till veri full...
all de food and everything i pay de...
so expensive.... spent $100++ for everthing including the cake...
the cake also expensive... $38++ for juz a small small cake...
but cannot blame also... i buy belgium chocolate deluxe give him... cos we all like chocolate...
hmmm... i hope he realli enjoy the day lor... juz wan him to have a happy happy birthday...

den everything went on as per normal for life...
recently busyng doing my dnt... and de stupid mrs ang sux alot... realli sux....
now lessons all on revision... do past year paper... all so sian... i everi time fall asleep in class...
on one occasion, i become veri zhi lian... i take photos of myself haha....
i know i veri zhi lian rite... haha.... but not bad... all de picture were veri nicely taken... self taken de wor... hehe....

recently always like to take picture... dunno why also... haha.... taken photo with cass and shirley...

ok la mi blog till here liao... write many things le... free den come blog again... lols....
buai buai

2007-05-09T18:33:00.000+08:00

05/05/07
today i am veri happy becos i passed my basic theory... i failed for 2 times le... finally passed by the 3rd time... veri long no blog le... cos veri tired liao... no time to blog... everyday sleep veri late at night cos veri hot... this few days weather veri hot leh dunno wad happened to the sun suddenly like the earth so much... so now muz write for the past few days...

06/05/07
today we went for dinner with ger and danny...they came and fetch us at our house downstair. As we are going for our dinner, we talk craps on the car... ger say later we go eat order drinks that time li siao the uncle who sell drinks. she ask my hubby to say "coffee dun wan milk" den ask mi to say "Ice milo hot one dun wan milk" den she say "teh o with milk" and danny say "teh without milk"~!! we were laughing like crazy. den ger suddenly realised that my hubby was wearing onli a boxer out for a dinner... she kept on suaning my dear dear... haha so funny... soon we reached changi village. We went to eat their famous curry fish head... When we settle down the curry fish head there was realli veri nice... eat until veri shiok... we eat and eat... half eat half talk and laugh... so funny.... den after that danny brought us to his friends cafe... we drink beer and watch the soccer match of arsenal and chelsea... we drank two jugs.... den after that danny send us home... when we reach home, we place bet on soccer den we sleep liao... Night Night...

2007-04-24T18:15:00.000+08:00

haiz... today is another day... i tot things will turn out better.... woke up in the morning full of hopes that my hubby will patch things up with me... however, when i call my hubby in the morning and ask him to wake up that time, nothing happens... our english teacher brought us to computer lab for movies... by that time i am freaking stressed out... i totally have no mood for my composition... therefore i sent a message to my hubby telling him that i hope that everything will be peace... i dun like cold wars... i realli fucking dun like the feeling... is there anyone who can understand mi? is there anyone who can feel how i feel? i am just a 19 years old ger... why be so angry with mi? ppl said that a couple dun have overnight fight... and it is prefectly normal for a couple to quarrel. yes i agree to a certain extend. but it is not everything my fault.... i am also innocent... juz becos of one word u have to be angry with mi.... juz be cos of a 4d number, u have to be angry with mi... what am i to you? u can make mistake and i cannot? i am also human and no one is prefect... maybe i am stupid, yes i admit it... but can u pls tell mi, whenever you are in trouble, who is the one who help u? yes i may not understand u alot and i know that u also have many things to stress but i also have mine... i cant possibly vent my anger on you and u cant do it to mi too... i didnt say u have but i am juz saying it.... i am freaking stressed and fucking tired... i have so many things to think... ppl say: yi ri fu xi bai ri en, chuan tou chao jia chuan wei he, but i dun seems the case... everyone also wan to get money from the government, who dun wan... it is fate that it is urs, its yours... if it is not urs, u will never get it.... some times words that u said are sacastic but i juz nv take it to heart... when tears roll down my eyes, do u know? do u actually know how i feel? i realli love you yes i do. do u realli love mi? a relationship to almost 2 years, what do u actually think of mi?

Temple is temple. i am not god and god is not mi. do u understand? sometimes things are not what i wan den can get. i dun wan temple things to interfer our relationship. i love my gods and i hope u will do so too... all the time i say is true, it is up to u to believe. i have to handle so many things at a time, coem on i am not superwoman. give mi a break... i am realli stressed.

2007-04-23T18:31:00.000+08:00

today is monday again... woke up in the morning feeling very tired... dont feel like going to school... however i still go becos i promise cassandra to go and i dun wan to make my dear dear angry... everything in school was fine.... Abt 8:00am i called hubby to ask him to wake up... den he say go out liao... so i tell him that i will calll him at my recess time... den time passed veri quicky, i was feeling veri hungry... den recess came.... i call hubby again.... he soundes inpatient to mi and i ask him if he was busy... he say no... dne i ask him wad he doing, he also say nothing... den after awhile i told him that i call him when i finished school... but he say no need.... >.<" den i ask hhim why? den he say reach home den call him... den i say ok bye bye then we put down the phone... I feel sort of cold from him... "am i tinking too much or it is true? Is hubby angry with me or what?I am realli confused!!" den after eating my meal, i went for d&t... After D&T it started to rain... Bing Han was veri nice... He sheltered mi with hi umbrella and i wait for cab... When the cab came... i said tks and bided good bye.. den when i reached home, i called hubby again... i told him that i reached home already den he say he is busy changing light so i ask him to call mi back when he is free... den after that i went to bath and do his warcraft game... he is upset cos his game has some problem... i realli didnt do anything to his game and i dunno what happened to his game... i wanted to help him but i feel i am useless.... as i didnt know where the fault lies, i realli dunno how to do it... i had tried all my best to help but it is to no available to help him... Later, hubby called mi he asked mi what i was doing so i tell him that i was helping him to do his computer... den he say forget it... he is going to reformat it.... is it mi who had made his computer to this state? that cos his computer to have many errors? OMG... i am so stressed... every unlucky thing happens to me... what should i do? what can i do? i realli dunnno....

God Please Help Me To Change My Luck...
God Please Help Me To Patch Things Up With My Hubby...
God Please Help Me To Successfully Fix The Game Of My Hubby...
God Please Help My Hubby To Win ToTo So his Mood Will Be Better...
God Please Help Me....
God Please Forgive All My Sins If I Have Done Anything Wrong...
In The Name Of All Gods I Prayed...
Thank You...

2007-04-22T19:03:00.000+08:00

every thing was the same... i am veri tired... i woke up at 1:49pm today... veri veri tired... i went to buy 4D in the afternoon... and then come back to see television... den after that 4D open... 3rd prize: 8887.... My heart brokes... I buy it but it was sell out... so i dun bother as i think that this type of number will not open... i was veri sad when it opens.... 4D mah... this type of things wwill not everything also goes according to ur wish de.... everytime i buy it also no open... notw it open.... he blame mi... why wrong do i have... i am realli veri sad... it is heart breaking enough to nv get the number... now... it is more sad.... telling ppl say i got many money that i dun need it... who know that i am in need of the money... things are so fuck up... den imagine ppl keep calling and asking... and he kept on saying it over and over again... i am realli veri sad... listening to the same thing over and over again... i am eniough...

2007-04-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

today i didnt go to school... whole body aching sia... so horrible... next time dun wan go for soccer liao.... sob sob... soccer so terrible... but i went back for photo taking... so happy takin photo with the class.... although go ppl unhappy with us delaying so long but i still enjoy the day... 5A thanks for the photo... i tink i will keep it forever...

i feel so sad lor... haiz.. dear dear keep on dun let mi use msn... he say i ask mei mei dun use i ownself still use... sob sob... use msn also cannot so boring lor... i feel that i like no freedom... everytime muz wait until he not in den can use msn... sob man... i wan to faster change the internet plan... i wan to change to something powerful... so i can use the msn and internet when my hubby is playing game... sob sob... i dunw an to wait fro him not at home den play... i will feel veri sad de lor....

haiz... i tink i write till here le la... veri tired le... dun wan to write longer le.. so sad... burying in my sorrow.... cya...

2007-04-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

today i went to school feeling very excited...
excited to see what our class t-shirt will look like... class tee look quite nice to mi... feel that it is quite worthy...
today lesson was boring... i am veri tired and was bored to death...
going for recess was difficult.. we were dragging our feets there... desprite of the tireness, my stomach was more hungry... so hungry than it oversome my tireness....
when school finishs, cass and mi went to opp...
den after that cass went home and i meet keat leong....
den meeting keat leong i went back to school for D&T.... Do my D&T and have fun with 5B students there... after my D&T i have no where to go... table tennis people feel so strange... they wear colour sunglasses.... i dun like....
after that i went down to the foyer and saw musik... den after that we go for a deep breath outside the school... upon finishing, i went back to the school again... i went to find ms wong after that...
ms wong ask mi to help her out to do her table tennis attendance list....
after i help her to do, she give mi a chocolate...
finally it is CCA step down time...
ms wong give out a speech and then she give out so gift... at first i tot there is nothing for mi... dne after that when i am leaving, she took out a gift for mi... i am so happy... hahah....
den jia wen ask mi to eat pizza, i told her that i didnt wan to eat... i have my reason... my reason is that i didnt join table tennis for long so i dun wan to have free load... as there are many people wearing sunglasses... all give fuck up glance.... den after that Ms Wong ask mi eat apple pie... i rejected hers too.... i left the place after that....
i go to foyer wait for mummy to fetch mi home... finally i reach home liao....
After reaching home, i bathe le den i do the blog thing... finally..... i completed my blog design... hope anyone who see my blog will like the design and stuffs....
i write till here liao.... wan to go do the attendance list... forget that i haven complete yet... good night...

2007-04-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

today i go to school and feel veri tired...
dunno why maybe i never sleep well yesterday night.
tinking of going to school makes me feel veri sick each day...
however becos of the o level cert bo bian...
everything in school goes well...
but the PE lesson makes mi veri tired... realli tired...
After school Cass and i board the same bus...
i going to ah ma house and find her..
on the way there we talk of alot of thing...
i find cass a veri good listening ear....
hopefully our friendship can last long...
dun wish to lost any friends now liao... last year of school le.... so hope to have good memories....
anyway, we went to bedok interchange.... i went there to fix my gold chain....
i treated ah ma to pizza hut to eat... Spend around $50 today... ZZZ....
upon reaching home, i went to bathe... cos i feel veri smelly and sticky....
after that i on my computer and wait for my dear dear to come back...
waiting for my dear dear is a pleasure to mi... i like to wait for him...
like the way he come back and call mi....
after that have dinner lor....

today in class i tink that i am mixing better....
at least jia wen and elin's attitude towards mi are not so cool like last time liao...
i felt relieve...
tomolo taking class tee... feel veri excited to see how it looks like....
because of the stupiid class tee, i fork out $50 to lend ppl...

today 4d never win... so sad... kana eaten up all... dotx...
puzzling about wad to buy for dear dear for next month...
next month is 2 years anniversary... dunno wad to buy for him...

this few days i reach home veri late... tomolo is a long way to go...
after lesson got D&T consultation den got class photo taking den got CCA step down...
everything do finish i tink 6 plus liao...
hope tomolo mommy come fetch mi so i can take shun feng che... hehe...
no need to crowd in the bus with other ppl or take taxi waste money...
now is 2158 liao... mommy stay not back yet... hope she wont come back too late... tomolo she still need to work...

i write till here le... waiting for the stupiid cass to online help mi do the blog skin tingy... she still not online... dotx.... ok le... bye bye

2007-04-10T19:41:00.000+08:00

today, i am veri tired. i came home and then i went to bathe straight away...
after bathing, i waits for my dear to come back...
At around 7pm he reached home...
he went into the room and he asked mi if i am very tired...
i told him that yes i am veri tired...
I remembered that i needed to go and buy incests paper for praying purpose so i asked him if he wants to go along...
He asked mi when i wanted to go...
as i could make up my mind, i told him perhaps now...
After a few minutes, i changed my mind...
i think that m,aybe he is veri tired after he came back from work....
so i told him that i am going down to buy it myself....
Then, he shouted at me...
"Cant you let me rest awhile?"
"You can come back and rest and i cannot?"
I felt that this was damn fucking hell unreasonable....
i have a interest in his heart yet he shouted at me lidat....
maybe he didnt know what i am thinking and thought that i just want to go and buy now that is so like... Urgent....
If that is the case, cant he ask mi for a reason? will he die asking me for a reason?
i am veri veri sad....
I feel like crying out loud at that moment....
in the end, he still accompanied mi there....
upon reaching there, the shop is not opened....
I told him to go to another shop...
on the way he kept on mentioning about my face expression...
he said i gave him a stuck up face....
I am utterly disappointed....
he said that upon reaching home from work see my face like that veri sian....
In my heart i am scolding Na bei....
I told him that i am really veri tired....
Damn Damn Tired....
What if let him try....
Study from morning 7am to 6pm....
We will see if he is realli so nice to show mi a smiling face or a face worst than mine?
My day is so miserable from what happen....
Desprite his scolding,
i didnt reply him... i didnt wan to answer him.... I am ignoring him....
I dun wan to say the wrong things to invite quarrel with him...
My Heart Is Crying...
Crying For Help...